30th December Baby . ^^

The Birthday Girl = )***

Hello people . I'm back on board to blogger . Haha . So anyway , yesterday was Ridzuan's birthday and also Julia's birthday party . It was loads of fun . Even though it was raining . We were all wet and stuff . The party was like a BBQ so yeah . Haha . Ira and Aiman were fighting . And we found out that Aiman Speed Dates on Facebook . Despo much ? Hahaha . Some of us got wet . My new sneakers kena Tepung . Haha . Inara got all white cause of the Tepung . Cute . Azizi got Julia a plushie , I got Julia a pencil case , Ira got her a mug , Ridzuan a bracelet , Nadzri a bracelet as well , Azim chocolates , Ku got her aromatic candles ( Haha ) .. The rest I cant remember . Haha . Oh yeahhhh . Since it was Ridzuan's birthday , Julia got him .... CONDOMS . Ahahahahaha . That was so funny . Then everyone pointed and shouted , " Tu ha . Tester kat sana . " And they were pointing at me . WTF . Haha . Loads of fun !!

I'm Trying .

When I think of all the things you've done to make me fall in love with you , I start to cry . Before the both of us got together , you were so sweet . Dont get me wrong . You still are . Before all of this , you texted me in the morning . First one to say good morning . Your words were in my head all day . Your voice . But now , when I see you , you give me smiles sometimes . Others are hatred , disgust . I dont get it . It hurts to hear people telling me you like other people . It hurts . I never ask of you . NEVER . But , it seems , I'm not good enough for you . Never was . I've tried to make you happy . I've tried . Tried so hard that my faith in this has died . You wouldnt help me . I want to say so many things to you . I dont hate you one bit . No . I love you so much that I could just give you my life so you could have yours . I'm wasting my time . I'm killing myself every single second . But I love you . Its worth it . You might not love me anymore . But I'll deal with that on my own . It'll cause me pain , but I have no other choice . ILY Ridzuan Yusoff Roberts <3

Mine Mine MINE ! =DD

No . I'm NOT .

You know when people say things about you , which are soo not true and they mean ? Same goes for people calling you a slut . What the hell is your problem . Yes , I got like 4 boyfriends this year . I wear sleeveless clothing . Yes I wear mini skirts . And your point is ? So ? I will wear what I want to and when I feel like it you bitch . Who are you to judge ? Whats wrong with my photos ? WHATS WRONG WITH WHAT I DO ??? HUH ?! Dont go calling me a slut , and saying that I'm a heartless person . Actually , I am much more nicer than you . You know it . So backoff or I will make your life a living nightmare . You're more slutty than a prostitute . Go look in the mirror before you spread rumours about me . Got it ? Orang tengah enjoy holidays , You pergi cakap kat orang that I am bla bla bla , You tak de kerja lain ke ha ??? Get a life you bitch . Suka hati je kau eh nak panggil orang Slut . Tengok la diri dulu before you call someone else a Slut , Prostitute , Heartless and a Player . Please la kayy . When you find out that you are the one that turned out to be the things you've called me , go spread the facts .
Go To HELL . Slut


Yous truly ,

Vanelle <33

You Actually CARE ???

Haha . WOW ! Its weird . Yesterday , Amanda came over and played Guitar Hero . Which helped me prevent from texting HIM . Haha . So it was like this :



HIM : So you going to Julia's birthday ?



HER : Yes . ( BTW , I kept it short . Showing that I wasnt interested ^^ )



HIM : Kay . I'll see you then .



HER : ( I didnt reply . I am sooo proud of myself ! Haha ! )





So Amanda and I finished playing Guitar Hero , then we went behind to play with the chipmunks . Haha . She was afraid to feed them . Scared that they'd bite her . One of the chipmunks was so greedy , took all the nuts , and stuffed them into its cheeks . Fat fat . Haha . So cute ^^ . Sfetr all the feeding , we talked about what we'd get for her birthday . Haha . We soo dont have time to go out . Since my trip is coming up . Haha . Amanda left at four cause she had a piano thing to attend . At around six-ish , HE texted me . LOL .

HIM : So are you still unwell ? How are you feeling ?

HER : I'm still sick . Bodyache and all . Not feeling good .

HIM : If you still sick then why force yourself go to Julia's ?

HER : ( * YOU CARE ???? 0.0 * ) Nah . I'll be fine . I have to go . = )

HIM : Kay . If you're sure .

HER : Yeah . Bye .



Thats the end . Actually I said bye , but he kept replying . Normally its me who wants to talk , but now him ?? Dont get me wrong , Its just weird . He NEVER texts me first . Haha . Get the point ? LOL .
I guess thats it . For now . Ngaa ~
Bye !

Award To Myself .

Have you ever come across a feeling that you are te worst daughter/son ever ? I have . Well , it started when I first found out how much my trip and my choir vest cost . It was soo " OMFG . You are joking right ??! " . I'd rather not say how much it all came down to . I am blessed that Mummy didn't really say much . Just really shocked and gave me THE MOM LECTURE . Haih . That was when I realised that I am a hopeless daughter . Argh . I felt really bad . I definitely want to do better in life . But I keep procastinating for some reason . I cant stop . Argh . Suck . I have totally deserted everything . I wanna be a better person . No more throwing a tantrum , no more laziness , NO MORE . I am sick of myself . I no longer love what I am . Don't wanna be a failure .

You're staying ?? OMG ! ILY <33

Shocker of the day ? He is not moving ! Baby , I love you ! Haha . I wonder why he faked it ?? Oh well . To make me miss him ? LOL . I dunno . Sometimes I just don't get him . Here's the story .



Got home from the Reunion , changed , showered , wanted to sleep for awhile as for I was not feeling well .Before going to Dream Land , I decided to send a last text message to him before he left . I was broken hearted . But I had to . So after sending that SMS , I put my phone on silent , cause I didnt want to hear anything and I wanted to sleep peacefully . At 8.50 pm , I woke up , hearing the sound of my mums laughter . Got up , took my phone , saw 5 text messages . 3 were from Ridz , 1 from Trace and another from Reva . The first one I opened was Ridzuan 's saying " Thanks . Maybe I'll see you next year " . Second one " So are you going to Julia's birthday party ?? " And the last one " Ok . I tell you the truth .. I .... Am ... Not ... Going ... To ... Indon . " OMG right ?? Haha . I know .I wonder why he was lying . I was so upset when I remembered he was moving . I actually cried . I love him . Well , I am sooo happy he's staying . !


Note *** : To my Hunny 's , I am sorry . But I cant leave him . Sorry babes .

Lots of kisses ,
-Vee-