I'm Trying .

When I think of all the things you've done to make me fall in love with you , I start to cry . Before the both of us got together , you were so sweet . Dont get me wrong . You still are . Before all of this , you texted me in the morning . First one to say good morning . Your words were in my head all day . Your voice . But now , when I see you , you give me smiles sometimes . Others are hatred , disgust . I dont get it . It hurts to hear people telling me you like other people . It hurts . I never ask of you . NEVER . But , it seems , I'm not good enough for you . Never was . I've tried to make you happy . I've tried . Tried so hard that my faith in this has died . You wouldnt help me . I want to say so many things to you . I dont hate you one bit . No . I love you so much that I could just give you my life so you could have yours . I'm wasting my time . I'm killing myself every single second . But I love you . Its worth it . You might not love me anymore . But I'll deal with that on my own . It'll cause me pain , but I have no other choice . ILY Ridzuan Yusoff Roberts <3