Entry 1

There is definitely no way to explain what I feel right now. Its all hurt, pain, anger, regret….I wonder wether I have made the right choice. I feel like I want to scream and cry. I’m not sure wether he understands what being TOGETHER is about. Maybe I was wrong. What did he mean by “Why should I sms you when I am having fun.!” These words…Run around in my head. It hurt so bad. I only feel anger at this point. He just ran a knife through my heart. OK. Its fine with me if he wants to be that way. But he has done this a few times. I don’t know how long I can cope with all of this. I definitely want to be with him for a long time. Of course I love him. Its just that he needs to watch his ways and think about how other people would feel. No matter how mad I get, I still adore him. So he just sent me a voice recording, saying he forgave me. Fine. I can accept that But it is definitely his fault.

-Vee-